Journey Of Self Discovery

I've recently found myself on a journey of self discovery. I don't think I 'intended' to do so but all the same here I am. I've started by going backwards. Starting with my earliest and happiest memories. I'm trying to decode what about my past made me...well...me. Why did I like the things I liked? Why did I react certain ways? Why did I perceive certain things and situations the way I did? This has been fun and also somewhat daunting. The fun comes from being able to relive my childhood nostalgia. The bad comes from having to see the kind of person I really am underneath it all. Unbeknownst to me this whole time I'm actually quite the fragile person, soft person. Now I need to find a way to be okay with that. Actually I think I AM okay with it. I think what I need to do is learn to LIVE that way and adapt to these new structures of my 'being'. Blah blah blah call a self help guru OKTOBR is spiraling down some weird rabbit hole again.